Hello friends, FINALLY!!
I missed uploading here and this video has been in the back of my mind for all this time, as well as you who are subscribed, who want to see more of me.

After uploading my last video, chapter four, I spent 10 days offline, away on a trip with family - I actually finished uploading the hour before leaving - and during that time it was never my priority to edit, I made it so I could enjoy my time there and truly relax and do nothing which was very much accomplished.

After I returned, in the few days I had, I started preparing for university and my schedule got hectic with friends, family, and my surgery as well, which you saw here in this video. And 2 days after I left the hospital, second-year started. That weekend I had no time to edit whatsoever and this video got once again delayed.

The first week I would leave the house at 7am and return at 7pm, with a day full of lectures, man it was rough! The second week - that I finished today - was a lot calmer, however still very very busy. In these last two weekends I was certain I would upload and then a million things kept having to be done and I ended up prioritizing them over uploading here so all the editing kept being delayed. the video isn't perfect in my eyes but this is as good as I can make it with the time available. there are some details that I normally would have changed but I'm resisting the urge to be a perfectionist! u.u

2nd year has been the busiest I've ever been in my entire life, just because I have more lectures and practicals scheduled compared to first year. I don't want to miss lectures, I don't want to get behind on studying and I also have to prepare for practicals, so I'm left with little time. however, your girl is managing!

one thing that hasn't been helping me is the fact I'm not allowed to do yoga or workout because of the surgery, I'm still healing. not being able to do yoga takes a huge toll on my mental health and I feel very smooshed from all the stress I have on my shoulders right now.

I recognize that a lot of the stress put on me is from **myself**. I'm working harder than last year, I want to do better than last year. Yoga helps me reflect a lot. Right now, just posting this video and getting back to my normal video routine will help a lot.

I hope you enjoy this little documentation video. these last few months, july, august, they will never come back to me, they are gone. All I have left now are memories. People change - I will never be the same, people around me will never be the same, places will never be the same, situations change. I don't take anyone or anything in my life for granted, I know it can disappear in the snap of a finger, so I treasure everything I am so lucky to have. it's good to look back and know that it happened, that I had it, even if just for a while. that's enough.

okay, c: I hope you have an amazing day, wherever you are in the world.

{{{school vlogs soon to return}}} :)

yours,
maria
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MUSIC 🌻
I'm Fine by BTS
Sada - Free Sushi by Exhume
mystery dungeon w/ frad by bloom.
feelings are fatal cover by mich, original by mxmtoon
Summer's Day [v1] by jinsang
hot coco by embeats
memory lane by aqualina
thank you, i love you, i'll miss you by aqualina
i held you so close i forgot the world by sweetbn _
やわらかいユーレイ by unmo soundcloud.com/unmo/aurei